I don't know what the right thing is anymore. If you're only making decisions to make others happy, yet you're still miserable, that's wrong, isn't it? And if what makes you happy is looked down upon, you have to either avoid it or keep it secret. So the right thing becomes - what? The thing that makes you happy or that which pleases everyone else?
They'll say you're the one who matters, but in all honesty you need to please them in the end to even consider being accepted. That's always the way it works.